Nov 1, 20182 min read

A New Kind of Strong

As a kid everyone always talks about the infinite possibilities of all the wonderous accomplishments that you will be able to achieve as an adult... no one ever tells you what to do when your accomplishments fall short or your goals somehow feel farther away in your 30's than they did when you were learning to tie your shoe.

You know the saying "the sun always comes out after a storm"? I hate that damn saying... almost as much as I hate when people say it! lol. In my experience, I have found that though I have had my fair share of sunlight, the thunderstorms tend to leave me shook.

Presently, I am in the middle of a new thunderstorm. I like to call her the "Despertar Tormeta" otherwise known as the "Wake-the-fuck-up Thunderstorm".

The last several months have been challenging. Losing my job at the beginning of summer felt like an opportunity to embark on an exciting new adventure... and now four months and probably 15 successful yet unfruitful interviews later, it feels more like a cruel and unusual form of torture. I have had so much time to focus on my shortcomings and failures that sometimes I feel defeated before the day even starts.

After a couple weeks of self-loathing and barricading myself in my tiny apartment, I decided that though I have no control if someone decides to hire me (despite my tireless attempts), I have to get a grip and focus on something that I DO have control over... my body and mind.

See not only has my mind been extremely negative, my body has also been going through a downward spiral. I have always fluctuated in weight and size, even as a child, but most recently I am the largest that I have ever been. In the last 2 years I have gained 65 lbs. for no real reason except that I lost control... control of my stress eating, control of my lifestyle, and worst of all, control of finding my motivation.

As of Monday, October 29, 2018 I decided to let this thunderstorm wake me up and have started on my weight loss and wellness journey! I am writing this blog post not only to share an extremely personal and challenging time in my life, but as a way to motivate others. I am well aware that I am not the only person who has road blocks standing in the way of their goals. I am here to keep myself accountable and hopefully embody the notion that there are various types of strong, and a new kind of strong is just a decision away.

I let fear fire me up and motivate me to find my fierce, I know you can too! Keep updated with my journey and progress by following me @thetipsyrealist on Instagram and by subscribing to the blog!

With love,

Mary